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Depression and Addiction? | Hey, sorry to bother, but I have a family history on my mother's side of bipolar and I was taking anti depressants before due to depression and I used to drink alot. Well I was introduced to weed and love it, a little to much. I smoked every day, morning, day, night, and have drained my bank account on it. Now, for som... | 1 |
My boyfriend 19/M and I 19/F are having a rough relationship and it's making my depression harder and harder each day. | TW: (mention of mental illness and abuse)
My boyfriend (19) and I (19), have been dating for almost 4 years now. We got together in sophomore year of high school, and now we're sophomores in college. In the next coming weeks, I will be moving into my first apartment with him back up to our college town. (we have lived... | 2 |
Living life on autopilot. Apathetic and empty | Recently moved to a new city with my wonderful boyfriend. Thought this would help my depression but of course, it didn’t.
The empty feeling is still there. I observe other people and life around me and feel so disconnected. Nothing excites me. I feel doomed and destined to die by my own hand. Not today, not tomorrow, ... | 1 |
Went to prom and it was fucking miserable | Maybe Im just a depressed loser but prom was awful. The whole time I thought about if my ex long distance gf was there. I miss her so much. We were long distance and it tore me apart inside. Everything couples did, I couldn't. I convinced myself that one day my pain would be worth it. She broke up with me. The pain ... | 3 |
can't actually do it | wish someone would do it for me. ruined my life and it just snowballs.
it'll get better they said. you have so much to live for they say.
almost got into a head on collision with a semi about 20 min ago, fight or flight kicked in and i swerved. now im typing this with my s/o sitting right next to me completely una... | 1 |
Mom's freezing me out again | My mom and I had a "fight" (she snapped at me because my time was disappointed when she told me to go upstairs and that she was taking over the living room for the night) and I stood up for myself over text. She has been freezing me out ever since. It's been 3 days and she hasn't said a word to me. I feel so alone. She... | 1 |
i've been trying so hard to overcome everything but i feel like i always go a full circle back | i haven't let my feelings out for a while so here i am
*tw brief mentions of sh*
i'm someone who used to just wallow in my self pity and didn't really want to get help. a few months ago i decided that i shouldn't let myself rot like this and i should start trying my best to get better again
an important note is tha... | 1 |
Ive gotten really stressed recently, and have been taking it out on other people. | I don’t know why I’m acting out. I feel like there’s not enough time for me to make logical choices and actions.
At the moment, I’m just a ball of anger and sadness. I cannot eradicate the cause of my stress either. | 3 |
idk anymore, feel like giving up on everything | I want to love someone so badly, I have had nights of thinking what's the meaning of life & only thing I can come up with is love. But I can't for the life of me find that. No matter how a hard I try. I don't even feel like people talk to me much, I know people but I don't get talked to unless I start conversations. Th... | 2 |
overwhelmed and lost | i want to see a therapist but only have medicare and would have to pay some money out of pocket maybe life is so overwhelming for me idk what to do anymore im 35yo feel wasting life away | 2 |
I want to hide | I finally bought a tattoo gun. Kinda random but i thought it would be better to use that then a knife to cut. Now all I want to do is cover my arms i have so many scars and I know everybody sees them and its embarrassing. My gf thinks im obsessed but i dont know how to explain it to her that I just want to fucking hide... | 1 |
I actually hate myself. | Does anyone else just fucking hate themselves? Their whole personality and persona.... The way they talk to people or the way they do things? Like I just feel like a fucking twat no matter who the fuck I talk to. I just always feel like a waste of space in everyone's lives and the more I desperately try to have any kin... | 6 |
I don’t want to have to work and am considering suicide |
I cannot think of anything worse than spending the rest of my days working. What’s it all for anyway? I’m just going to die regardless and I don’t see the point in spending the rest of my days miserable, working in a job I will undoubtedly hate when I could just end it all now. It all amounts to the same anyway. | 5 |
Why does someone have to ask for help? | Maybe I have a complicated relationship with my parents. They seem to hold things over my head, but they are overall great parents.
My life is in shambles, I have had some medical issues recently. I live in a new city and I have no support network. My medical issues keeps me from working, and any hobbies. It has been... | 1 |
I’m a mess on social media | I’ve been struggling really really hard with social media addiction ever since the pandemic. Maybe a bit before that.
But all my socials are just plastered with sad depressing shit ever since like a year and a half ago.
It sometimes surprises me just how much I’ve wrongly used social media as an outlet for all the sh... | 1 |
how to be normal | i’ve been pretty depressed lately, eating less, smoking more, just overall down. my boyfriend has mentioned how hard it is to deal with me when i’m sad (it’s harder cuz we’re long distance). i can tell this is having a pretty negative effect on him, i don’t want to burden him anymore, i want to be enjoyable to be aroun... | 16 |
I hate my life | My wife and I are separated living under the same roof. She’s talking to another man across the country and swears it doesn’t mean anything, but I’m not stupid. She says she wants to be with me and I just need to figure myself out. Her deciding to be emotionally intimate with someone else says enough for me. I love... | 1 |
should i go to the ER again? | my medication is having negative side effects for context i started buspirone for anxiety and had extreme drowsiness, paranoia and hallucinations (some of which i couldn't tell the difference between reality and if it was a hallucination) so i stopped taking it and switched to Effexor xr and within an hour of taking Ef... | 3 |
My will to live is slowly weakening | Things were good I was doing good but then like always depression sneaks up on me and here I am slowly taking pills from my mom so I can kill myself why the fuck did I try so hard all those years was I so foolish to think I could actually be happy and heal what the fuck was I thinking I’m almost 200 days clean 14 more ... | 6 |
Childhood trauma? | Any healing notes on childhood trauma? | 2 |
I don't wanna help myself | I guess that makes me a coward or a weakling right?
I don't wanna climb out a hole someone dug an threw me in.. i just want it to all be over.. though I've been through things i know how unfair they were an out of my control.. now im damaged from it.. i dont wanna read self help care books i dont wanna reparent myself... | 2 |
Idk how to fix this depression a single bit | I don't know how to cure depression from a missed opportunity i got it from a girl that's 10 i felt too embarrassed to ask if she wanted to be my girlfriend and i lost the opportunity and i don't now where she lives i have high or sever depression but im only 10 and i'd feel embarrassed to tell my parents and i'm only ... | 0 |
I’m wondering if I’m depressed again and should get back on my medication. Does this sound like mild depression? | I suffered from major depression in high school and I was on both Prozac (for OCD) and Wellbutrin from the ages of 14 to 19.
Since then I hadn’t really felt depressed. But recently I’m wondering if I am depressed again. I’m not really sure what mild depression is like but I’m wondering if this is it.
I’m 23 now and ... | 3 |
tips for severe depression? | i am in summer break, so there is literally nthg forcing me to get up
i didnt shower in 6 weeks
i haven t changed my bedding or my home clothes in months
i smell like shit but it s just too fking hard
i didn t see another human being outside my toxic divorced familly in the past few weeks
i picked anorexia nervosa alon... | 3 |
Apathy? | I graduated college with a whole ass diploma, my family is great, my chronic illness is in remission, and I quit my addiction. Why can’t I study for my nursing license? Why am I sad every single day? It feels like there’s no reason for this…my life is going pretty good. Depressive episodes are weird like that. I don’t ... | 2 |
The pain won’t ever go away | It’s constant. The feeling of dread when I get up. The pain I feel in my chest when I realize I’m really still alive. I would do anything to take it away. I really think i’m nearing my limit. It’s always been bad but now i’m just over it. I’m scared. I need help but I just can’t accept any help I get anymore because it... | 2 |
Rant: Wrapping up therapy | So my therapist said I should think about "graduating" and ending therapy. I mean, she has a good point; there is a good deal of just chit-chat we do to fill up the time.
I told her I was a little nervous because the last time we had that conversation, I was diagnosed with uncontrolled diabetes and had to go on a str... | 2 |
feeling a bit numb | hello everyone, I'm honestly not sure what the goal of this post is but I just feel like I need to blow off some steam. Lately I've been in such a negative headspace. I've been going through my daily life feeling empty inside, like absolutely nothing brings me joy or brightens my day. I'm currently taking a super rigor... | 1 |
I’ve decided | Trying won’t get me anywhere, I will still be bothered by everything. It’s clear to me suicid3 is the only decision, I’m patient so I can wait until it’s the right time. I feel so horrible, so sad I won’t experience life and everything that will happen in the future, but rather be left behind… it’s ok tho I feel left b... | 11 |
Manage panic attack | Hello ,
I’ve had a panic attack 2 days ago , and from then I wake up with chest pain and dark thoughts , It usually disappears within 1 week , but I have 4 exams in 2 days and I need to be prepared,
Any advice? | 2 |
Option | To bad I'll always be an option.... one day it'll end | 3 |
I need some support | My boyfriend dumped me after I told him about me un a livable attempt a few weeks ago. He said he doesn’t want to be apart of it. I just got out of the hospital shyer a week.
We where living together and have a dog together.. haven’t heard from him and my heart is non stop breaking all over again ): | 3 |
I'm a piece of selfish shit | I have an depressive episode. My mother has terminal cancer since last week
I couldn't anymore and told her I want to kill myself even though I promised her to make her life beautiful before she passes away. I can't stand up
House is amess
I'm disgusting
I fucking hate myself | 8 |
I'm having a moment today | I'm having a moment and just want to say something to anyone out there because I don't think I've spoken out loud to anyone in a day or two and that seems bad.
I'm unemployed for the second time in two years. I am moving and I'm stressed out. I'm in debt to my eyeballs from charging my rent and food and healthcare co... | 3 |
“I can’t love someone that doesn’t love themselves” | My boyfriend said that to me while going on about how he is tired of me feeling sad and horrible about myself all the time.
I understand how draining it is to be with someone mentally ill (I have diagnosed Bipolar depression), however, his statement still stings me till this very day. Am I truly unloveable because of ... | 19 |
My depression is back very strong..last time it was like this I attempted to hang myself…. | Idk…the beast (it’s what I call my depression) is back and it’s just overwhelming…I’ve been depressed/had thoughts of dying since I was 8 years old..I’m 34 now…I feel so fucking useless…I’m ashamed that I’m alive…I’m ashamed I exist…I hate this….I hate that I’m being a fucking bitch I stopped taking my meds a month ago... | 5 |
I’m completely lost and so tired of life | It’s summer, I hate it. I don’t know if it’s the expectation that I’m supposed to be outside having fun doing generic summer activities like swimming or going to the beach and I can’t, or just the fact that summer is the worst fucking idea for a season that could ever exist. It’s constantly over 100f and the humidity r... | 1 |
Why don't people listen? Never listened befor.... | Eventually the cops are going to get here | 1 |
idk where to write this | i feel an emptiness inside of me and a urge to party or something all the time, and lets say while partying i feel like i dont want it no more what can i do | 2 |
i want something to live for | what do you do when you feel like life isn’t worth living? i don’t have much going for me. i don’t have anything to live for except working at a 9-5 for the next 50 years and paying taxes. i just want something to give me hope. i want to be happy and have fun. i want the lives other people have. i want to travel. i wan... | 73 |
I feel like a fool. | After an appointment with my therapist a week ago, I was sent to mental hospital, psychiatric ward, whatever you wanna call it. 0/10 would not do again. Just got out after pretending to be “nice”. So I was talking to my therapist again, telling her what it was like. It was terrible. The things other patients and nurses... | 14 |
Recommendation request Mood Tracker App iPhone free | Can anyone recommend a free mood tracking app for iPhone?? | 2 |
Not sure where to go now | on mobile, sorry for formatting.
I’ve been dealing with this for a while and was in therapy in high school. My therapist told me it was time to get a formal diagnosis and maybe start on meds and I stopped going after to avoid that. I did maybe “snap out of it” a few months later and was mostly good, but it’s been a f... | 1 |
Nothing sounds fun anymore | I’ve struggled with depression for most of my life. I’m 24 now and I’m working two jobs to pay the bills, so I hardly have any free time. When I am free, nothing sounds fun anymore. I never feel like doing anything even though I know I should because I only have a very limited amount of free time.
I go to bed early e... | 1 |
Stress causing acne |
Hello, I have been wondering if stress really do cause acne. I have been depressed let’s say due to exams and worsened due to family problems. I had a panic attack for the first time where i felt my arms stiff/numb and my mouth felt dry and my breathing becomes irregular that I can no longer breath. After that episode... | 1 |
My migraine is not making it better | It feels like i've been hit in the head with a baseball bat | 2 |
The way out | Early 20s M here. I am just so sick of falling into the same loop again and again, and despite my best efforts not be able to get back to being a functional human being.
It starts with me realizing over the past 6-7 years slowly but surely that I have mental health issues. The process is sped up with losing people near... | 1 |
My Depression | I am a male and to be honest I don't know what to do with myself. I recently had my Papa die (grandpa), and ever since then I am in a constant loop of depression, I have nobody to talk to, I don't have any motivation to do anything. I can barely sleep without taking medication, this has caused more problems than I can ... | 1 |
Feeling down | I guess it’s more than just feeling down it’s depression. Im stressed out about school, work, finances, lack of friends, and lack of dates. I feel like I’m drowning all the time and I can barely get my head above water. On top of this I feel so alone and unwanted. Im going to therapy and im taking medication for depres... | 1 |
Depressed and believe that Im targeted. | People dislike me for some reason. Im always targeted for some reason. People are shitty. Im in the process of applying for disability. Ive bit my nails to bleeding nubs and i feel like Im at the end of the road. I want to give up. I have a hard enough time interacting and my emotions are hidden. I am too friendly. Peo... | 3 |
Idk | No matter what I do nothing feels good enough honestly I feel like I’m constantly trying to fix things and nothing ever works I’m looking for a job no luck there trying to get my ged but the math part I’m stuck on I’m honestly just at a point where i just wanna die | 2 |
IDK what matters | I don't know why. I don't know why I bother trying. And when, I absolutely give up whole heartidly... And do something,...I get this intend and overwhelming instinct try to counteract what I've done/am doing and keep going. So exhausting. Honestly can't even tell myself what I'm really holding onto.. Can't help clingin... | 1 |
Need Advice for a depressed friend and therapy and alcohol | I have a close friend that is constantly dealing with depression. The cries for help are heard by his circle, but unfortunately he is typically intoxicated when these cries for help and deep thoughts strike him.
He is not a alcoholic in your standard view of alcoholism like domes needs it every day. Just when he ... | 1 |
Big struggle with fatigue and motivation | I’ve been diagnosed with clinical depression for a while, so it’s not new to me. I’ve been in therapy since 4th grade so a lot of typical advice I already know. A little over a year ago, I lost a family member and it has put a lot of stress on my family and of course dealing with grief. I’m at a point where I’m well en... | 2 |
How to forgive yourself?????????????? | Specifically after having almost 5 years of sobriety, then having a few drinks. Then losing a wife and kids. I never would have touched alcohol again. It was suggested that I drink. I still don't understand why this happened. Anyways, I can't forgive myself after 80 days of blame, shame and guilt. Also, now I can't wor... | 2 |
The process of learning to accept | * Just need to let this out of me I don't like it I fucking hate it, it hurts so much it's like your heart getting squeeze so hard then someone throwing it to the wall. I never know I'd be hurt this much I guess that's what I get from loving someone and giving my all. I know I'll be fine(I hope so) I kinda know that so... | 4 |
am hiding my suicidal thoughts from everyone so they won't stop me | yesterday i had a great time with an online friend of mine, we talked for hours, i still have a good relationship with my ex, her family loves me and says hi from time to time, my friends call me and talk about having a trip this summer together. but they all don't know am planning to end it all, already deleted my soc... | 19 |
Looking for an online depression support friend. | Im 26F, experienced a very traumatic childhood of many types of abuse and neglect. I started having severe OCD symptoms as well as anxiety and depression beginning in elementary school, very young. Into my teenage years and early adulthood I sadly fell into the abuse cycle and had a couple major relationships that were... | 6 |
Depressed since as long as I can remember. Its only getting worse. | Suicidal ideation began for me since I was less than 10 years old. In the next 5 years, I tried to act on those tendencies 4 times, each time ending in failure.
I stopped with the attempts because not only were they only leading to immensely painful situations that didn't give any result, my parents started to blame t... | 2 |
Love craving | I don’t know where else to post because there isn’t a OLD sub, but I have a problem with being obsessed with finding like a romantic partner, it’s like I’ve been craving love since I was little, and im talking about romance and not “sexual craving”, it’s getting really bad and it’s like the only priority in my life and... | 1 |
Need an advice | Hey, I am a 22 years old and I feel like a failure. I just finished a degree in political science and now I returned home with my parents. I should point out i didnt actually finish I sisnt send my final thesis. Its not hard but I still didnt finish it on time. I feel bad about my self since I had many oportunities in ... | 2 |
Gaslighting Yourself | How can you break out of the "things could be worse", "at least you have a home, job, etc etc" loop?
Objectively speaking. I am not happy. I have always had suicidal ideation but have never attempted anything because it never seemed logical.
I *am* lucky in some instances of my life, but I acknowledge I am literally... | 3 |
i almost killed myself tonight | I should preface this by introducing myself probably, I’m sorry, I just needed a place to lay down my thoughts. I’m 21F and I’ve struggled with mental health issues for as long as i can remember, and it feels like no one in my life even cares. I’ve suffered from anxiety attacks since I was 10, been depressed since I wa... | 17 |
I need medication to make me feel numb. Currently on prozac | It's not working like i need it to. Its been about a year. I can't keep living like this. I don't want to feel. Any meds for this? | 3 |
Threw out my bed | I have recently started feeling depressed again. I was spending almost all of my days in bed. It got to the point where I found it to difficult to even cook for myself so i was just ordering food everyday and eating it in bed.
Than I got this thought that I should move my bed into the basement and just sleep on the fl... | 2 |
How long am I supposed to wait until it gets "better"? | I have been waiting for 25 years, for 25 years i have been alive, and just when it think maybe, just maybe there is some light at the end of this tunnel, i realize the light was only more darkness, and more pain.
There almost seems to be a fetish, a desire to see suicidal people suffer more and more and more...wh... | 9 |
… | I think I’m done living. It’s been years of endless therapy, hospital visits and medications. I’m starting to think that my mental illnesses are treatment resistant and that I’ll be like this forever. I don’t want that. I refuse to live like this any longer. I will be killing myself. Can I have one last chat with someo... | 13 |
I feel like that I am not good enough at times. | I was depressed during my time in university but after that it got alot better. This was probably because of COVID and other factors. Though this year its been pretty difficult for me. I am currently working full time and doing school on the side aswell. But Ive been pretty depressed, like I feel like that I am not goo... | 2 |
Getting over the past | Hello everyone, around a month ago I started therapy, and it is really helping me. I still feel like my past self is haunting me. I didn’t really go through any traumatic event or anything, my depression came out of the blue (it literally escalated over night). When I remember my past self I feel like crying, it makes ... | 2 |
I do all the “right” things and I’m still depressed | I get enough sleep. I drink a ton of water. I workout. I meditate. I do hobbies I enjoy like reading and gaming. I’m in therapy. I’m an introvert but I make sure to socialize at least a couple times a week. I keep my space tidy (most the time!) I journal. I eat healthy and take a multivitamin and fish oil. I even liste... | 3 |
i used to be insanely happy everyday and now everyday is a meaningless void i can’t escape | i’ve never been more happy and fulfilled than when i was with her. i used to wake up everyday and have so much passion, ambition, inspiration, happiness, and gratefulness, for life. whenever we would hangout it felt like i entered another dimension where the world felt perfect in every way and i had a deep love and hap... | 3 |
Need Help, Intruisive thought and Depressed alot SOS | I didnt got selection in my job exam and now im hopeless and depressed alot 😭,
Please help me, I feel desperate for help and any sub to change my mental state | 2 |
It never gets better | I first thought about suicide when I was 11 years old. My mother and I had a fight and I locked myself in a room. I knew that whether I open the door or not, something bad will happen.
By that point, I was already disappointed in life and very depressed, so I decided to kill myself. I approached the medicine cabinet a... | 2 |
Colleague brought back bad feelings. | At work today a senior colleague came to assist the students with their grammar. I was working with one student and when she came over I was nervous sure, but I didn't think she'd be so nasty. She had this calm patronising tone when checking the answers we'd collectively made. She kept correcting every tiny detail in i... | 3 |
Tired. | I'm just so fucking tired. Tired of work. Tired of socialising. Tired of thinking. Worrying about my social standing, my finances, my health, not having time to work on things I'm passionate about. Everything just takes so much energy out of me. When I actually have free time for myself all I want to do is lay in bed. ... | 165 |
How can I numb my feelings please help me out | I'm a too much sensitive caring person and I suffer a lot in public that's why I isolate myself, i want to not show my emotions my weakness my vulnerability I just want control and I'm too weak for that I want to numb my feelings and my anger how to do that. I'm suffering a lot of depression and I can't keep doing this... | 2 |
Pain and suffering | Hi everyone,
Recently I feel like my life has been a series of painful events. I am currently in recovery from alcohol and cocaine, and am also going through a divorce. I just signed the papers yesterday. I have a dwi I am dealing with and am in a treatment program that won’t let me go back to work yet. I paid almost ... | 3 |
Un amor triste y doloroso | Bueno, en junio del 2022 conoci a una chica de segundo grado, cabe acalarar que yo era un chico de un grado mayor pero ella me ganaba en cuanto a edad bueno a ella le pondremos Alicia, Mi amigo que los llamaremos Agustin le paso mi numero a esa chica y empezamos a hablar por mensajes de texto, teniamos charlas de 2 a 3... | 2 |
Why do I feel sad after interacting with family members? | It wasn't always easy when I was a child. My family was very dysfunctional back then and interactions often left me feeling empty and distressed. I used to hate my parents and myself for it.
Nowadays we get along pretty well. We've worked through a lot of conflicts and challenges and we're having really good heart-to-... | 2 |
My life and how it all came crashing down. | So, today marks day 1 of my journey to quit drinking.
Like many others, Covid really took a toll on me both physically and mentally. I work in a fast-paced industry with a high burnout rate, and about 2 years ago, I started struggling mentally. That's when I turned to alcohol as a way to cope. It started with a few be... | 2 |
Am I entitled? | Totally random but I just thought about this one time back in 2022 at the peak of my depressive episode, one of my “friends” tried by all means to reach me. And when they did, it was not to check up on me, it was to ask me for their usb cable I was using.
To think that our entire friendship, my entire life just amoun... | 1 |
Tips for setting a routine? | I've recently fixed my sleep schedule but my circadian rhythm has always been finicky so we'll see how long it holds. Trying to shower everyday (difficult because I have pots) and trying to brush teeth at least once a day. My eating schedule still isn't regular. I mostly just eat a lot once I'm starving. Even though I'... | 2 |
I'm in love with my best friend but she's seeing someone | She told me today that she's been seeing someone because he's nice and funny. She knows how I feel about her and apparently I'm not nice and funny enough. I just know deep down its that he's physically more attractive. It shattered my world too much where I can't even focus right now and I been feeling so bad for awhil... | 8 |
I’m 22 and have no idea what I want to do with my life | Tbh I didn’t think I would make it past 20 lol So I hadn’t really thought what I wanted to do after I graduated high school. I still have no ambitions or anything I like really. Nothing brings me joy or interests me. I just applied to college after not doing anything for so long but I have no idea what career I want, I... | 18 |
Mental Health on the Decline | Hi,
I just need a place to off-load
I never thought i would be in this state of mind. I've usually been a pretty positive person, trying to find the upsides to all the shitty situations I have been in. But i am tired. I really am.
My home situation is utter shit. For my entire life, I've been around abuse (verbal... | 3 |
Friends fighting = you damaged a relationship and it can't go back to the way it is | And it will never be the same once you fight because you know you have history and honestly how can anyone move on from that. Sometimes friends are a lousy excuse fuck this shit fuck society. | 1 |
I tried to harm myself for the 1st time TW : SH | The past few weeks I took way more medicine than usual to make me sleepy and pass my days, but 3 or 4 days ago, I was doing some 3D Pokémon cards and had to change the blade of the cutter and I tried for the first time to cut my wrist,
I have tattoos all around the places that people usually cut because I wouldn't want... | 2 |
It sucks cause I'm in love with her but she belongs to someone else. | I can't cope I can't get over I feel so damn deeply for her. She likes me back yet we can't do anything cause she doesn't mess up her current relationship I know it's wrong to feel the way I do about her. I don't know what else I'm supposed to do I really can't fuck off either cause that'll hurt me wayyy more and leave... | 1 |
i feel lost | i’m at a point where i can’t sleep, can barely eat, my medications barely work, my doctors are giving me the run around, i can’t work because of my illnesses… i just want to break down and give up because it all feels so pointless and relentless. i just want a normal life again. i’m just ranting there’s no real point t... | 1 |
I hate this | I hate hoe i am finally ready to talk about my emotions and then nobody listens..nobody cares or tell me im making it up.. doing it for attention.. i hate myself so much i cant keep living in my head.. | 2 |
Today I feel I'm even closer to being mentally paralyzed. | There's a lump in my throat. And I want to puke all my demons out. I was doing so well. Now I just want to give up again. There's nothing to look forward to. I've lost and been broken far too many times. This sh.it isn't fixable anymore. I'm beyond damaged repair. | 2 |
i’m afraid. | hi everyone, i don’t know what to do. so my home country is not exactly safe, i couldn’t leave my house or anything besides school because i was so fucking terrified of getting robbed or worse… especially as a girl i’ve seen horrifying shit that i can’t talk about even my dad was so emotionally abusive sometimes even p... | 2 |
I think I just cooked my head. This is a new one for me. | Some back story: I was on sertraline for depression for 5 years and came off it last year because I didn't think I needed it any more. Over the 10 months since I came off symptoms have been slowly creeping back in until I realised last week I need the sertraline again.
Today I have been doing some tidying around the ... | 2 |
Please make it stop | Depression and anxiety are a buzzkill at best. Torturous when it peaks. Objectively I know I didn’t do anything wrong. But that doesn’t stop my mind from taking things out of context, putting a disastrous spin on it and making me fear the worst outcome imaginable. Like a penny I accidentally dropped on the sidewalk wil... | 1 |
How do I deal with feeling of vunerability and shyness about my genitals? |
Im very shy, nervous and insecure about people seeing me with my foreskin retracted. Nurses or Doctors, sexual partners etc.
No human, other than two Doctors have ever seen me with my foreskin fully retracted. Not even my ex fiancee, no sexual partner before or scince either. No one apart from those two Doctors... | 0 |
I feel stuck and trapped [ADVICE PLS] | My dad threw out my cat. We had a major fight, I was devastated and heartbroken and from then on I could only think about one thing — moving out. It was April so I had uni classes till may, so when the may hit and my semester was over I took tickets and literally went to my friend from another city (biggest city of my ... | 1 |
I loved her | I loved her man I fucking loved her. I loved her more than I have anyone else ever. Why me. Why the fuck me. She was the greatest most beautiful person I’ve ever met ever and I really had to fuck it up. I fucking hate myself. I fucking hate my life. I just wish I didn’t fucking exist. Maybe then I would stop fucking hu... | 6 |
I haven’t had a day without depression since 1995. | I’m 32 on 8/1, and I just realized this. The hurt and depression I feel were put on me by my genetics and other people, like my parents and partners. I know that most, if not all of you- can relate.
I’m tired of masking and pretending to be this bubbly, happy person when inside I just want to be gone. I’m trying to d... | 36 |
I don’t know if it’s depression, loneliness, or limbo. I feel like I just exist. | I’m new to sharing, but my mom passed away after years of basically being a vegetable, and it’s been a year since she’s passed. I feel like no one if my life understands or feels comfortable enough to talk to me about what happened. Since my moms situation, I’ve dealt with the death of my grandmother, my aunt, got kick... | 1 |
Nothings working anymore | Whenever I start to have urges to kill myself or cut I always masturbate. As of today it’s not affective anymore, and I’m devastated. It used to bring me joy, it may have been fleeting, but it was still joy. It just makes the urges worse now, almost every time I’ve masturbated in the past week I’ve ended up crying afte... | 3 |
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